This thought should bother you

I feel a little bit justified by my middle school music choice as I write this.  The Red Hot Chili Peppers were right.  You have to give it away. Peppers

I've been thinking a lot about self-preservation.  This may be a better statement to a counselor than a blog post but for eight years or so I've been freaking out about dying.  It's seasonal.  I can go months without thinking about it or I'll have times where I think about it every hour.  I'm not sure where it came from but it hasn't been anything I can absolutely shake.  It's like that famous Woody Allen quote, "I'm not afraid of dying...I just don't want to be there when it happens."  The place I always think about it is movie theaters.  There is something to watching a story that causes me to reflect on my own story and wonder about it's length and content.  I want to stop watching and get moving.

Really, it's a silly fear.  I believe the chances are 100% at some point I'm kicking the bucket.  Same for you.  That's typically how I internally talk myself down.  This conversation happens inside my head, "It's not a maybe situation, so why are you freaking out? The good news is that it's not right now, can't worry about it until it happens."

But you might be doing this too.  You might not be thinking about death but you are probably thinking about a space you wish you could preserve.  It's a moment.  It's an event.  It's a role.  It's a title.  It's a trip.  It's a pay scale. It's a family.  It's an honor.  It's a living standard.  My experience has taught me this, the space we save will never be as good as the space we give.  What does that mean?  The very best in life is found outside of ourselves and our needs.  The more people who join with us in a space we give, makes it even more fun.  The space we save will one day be nothing more than something that's left behind.  But what we give creates a better story for others which makes our personal story beautiful and full of great content.

So what about you?  Are you working and planning to have more or to give more?  Are you trying to save space or create space to give?

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