The other day I had the feeling in my gut that the decision was wrong. I knew it wasn't going to work out. I knew it was going to fail but I let it happen anyways. And sure enough, it didn't work. I thought to myself, "You wussy." In the end it cost our team but I couldn't help but wonder why I went against my gut.
Here are the reasons I could come up with:
1. I didn't want to look like I was questioning authority.
2. I thought to myself, "Don't do it, the stakes aren't that high."
3. I didn't want to be seen as a "glass half empty" person.
4. I didn't want people to think I doubted them and that would produce doubt on the team.
5. I could be wrong.
I should have spoke up but I didn't. I should have reacted to what I was feeling inside but I didn't. I blew a leadership opportunity that the team would have benefited from but I talked myself out of it. I won't let it happen again. I let the lizard brain win.